Days@BlackRoad

Black Road 9th Annivesary: 2012 Possess the Land of Abundance!

2012-01-03T01:56:00.003+08:00

First thing, I wanna wish you Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!! I know I am always late. Last Christmas I wanna thank God for touching my dad's heart in the Christmas service! I believe day by day my dad's heart will be softer and softer for the love of God and the prompting of the Holy Spirit!

Thanksgiving:
Another few months have passed since the last time I spoke, not long ago from my post in Oct 11, I started working full time in this music school "Medley Music School" and have been playing guitar for the kids (students) christmas choir of the music school. I enjoy playing for kids from the music school because they are cute and they always do their best!

At the beginning of the year I've said that 2011 will be the Year of Restoration and indeed it was a restoration year as I have wrote that I've lost so many things about 4 years back but last year so many good news, good things happened in the prev year from my spiritual growth, family, ministry, career, finance and relationship! Spent about 4 years to wait for this career, gone through so many discouraging incidents, words & actions from people but God gave me this assurance so that I can prepare myself to do what I can after my daily work that is not related to what I'm doing now during the 4 years!

In 2011 I, I saw my vision coming to past! That's why every year I've said that it will be the best year and indeed 2011 is the best year yet but I just wanna say the year 2012 will be even better!

Year 2012: Possess the Land of Abundance:
Just felt that this year I'm entering into a warzone but The Commander of the Army of the LORD is for me and I will possess the Land of Abundance, I will fullfill the dreams and visions for the Lord quickily because His hand is with me and I just need to do my best and He will do the rest. Indeed God will do a new thing, I've been talking about this New Life here in this blog once in a while for about 4 years and look how much the Lord has done for my life? He has given me this New Life 11 years ago and He never fails to surprise me with new things! God is a God of new things!

This year I'm believing specifically for my breakthrough in:
1. Career
2. Studies (I think I forgot to mention here that I'm working and studying)
3. Looking for my life partner (Only after I finished my exam)

Last Christmas was my spiritual bday 11th years with the Lord but last christmas was also my 5th year officially transfered to CHC, God told me to check the blibical meaning of no. 5 and I found out that it speaks of His grace! I believe God is saying to me that His grace is sufficient for me and I just need to look to Him. It's by grace through faith! Never stop believing! 2012 will be the year of victory for me!

My New Life, My Career and Love Life

2011-10-27T00:46:00.001+08:00

Hi how's everyone? I dun think I have alot of blog readers these days as people can follow with each other's life through those social networks but blogging is already part of my life, the main reader is myself. Anyway.. I've quited my prev job and went to study music and I have plenty of time to work freelance for music. I'm really really busy these days but today is a public holiday so I thought of updating but I really don't know when will be my next update! I hope soon.
Now I really believe God will take my career and love life to the next level, I can feel it! God is stablizing my career and what's in my mind and heart right now? After becoming a certified instructor next year march, I plan to really spend time looking for a life partner as I really believe the time is coming.

Just wanna write down a special midnight (17 Oct 2011) Midnight Morning, is a memorable midnight as I recalled my personal verse and God's presence was so strong that night.

I received a call on 08 Oct 2011 to work for a music school with plenty of projects with MOE pri and sec. I mean what a priviledge to conduct classes for about 30+ - 40+ kids and young people! It's really by the grace of God as I was praying really really hard for a breakthrough. On the other hand during my 4th class on the 18th (right after the special midnight) I received a private student from my agency and another one on 21st.

Thank God for His grace as yesterday in special worship service I felt God's appreciation for my effort for trying my best for Him though I'm not perfect and have failed Him lots of time. That night is really an encounter with God, He really love us unconditionally.

Hosanna in the highest, let our Kings be lifted up, O Hosanna - by Sidney Mohede

The Annivesary Week 2011

2011-08-19T11:32:00.001+08:00

It's the birthday of my life, my nation and my church again!

NDP theme: Majulah, The Singapore Spirit

Church Annivesary theme: Come Together

So for me I'm going to make it a point to have an onward spirit in whatever things I'm doing or I'll be doing in the future, not just for myself but for others and ultimately for God. Personally I felt so honored celebrating my birthday together with my nation's and church's, it really helps to build a great atmosphere in my birthday!

For my birthday I have 3 celebrations, specially wanna thank God for the birthday gifts, for my FB and twitter birthday wishes/treats (this year I felt so encouraged!), specially wanna thank this great friend of mine for spending his whole day to treat me and to have fun!

In our Church Annivesary we have a rainbow colour cell group gathering and I think this year we really enjoyed ourselves! You can check out my FB pics, I think we look great!

NLS 2011 (3) Change E Way U Think

2011-07-13T18:34:00.008+08:00

New Life Series 2011 Change The Way You Think

Romans 12:2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

In the previous entry, I shared that God wants you to live a New Life given by God but before you live a New Life you need to forsake the old life with new values from God. You need to renew every thing in your mind from the mind of God, the values given by God.

Joshua 1:8 This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success

If you want to prevent the theif (devil) to steal away your New Life, you gotto meditate on the Word so that you will be prosperous and successful (and it will last). Alot of people might not agree with this post about changing the way you think by meditating on the moral laws of God. But remember the Bible says that

2 Corinthians 3:3 clearly you are an epistle of Christ, ministered by us, written not with ink but by the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of flesh, that is, of the heart.

Matthew 5:28 But I say to you that whoever looks at a woman to lust for her has already committed adultery with her in his heart.

So in the New Testament it is a higher expectation from God. The Holy Spirit will write the commandments in our hearts so that we will not sin against God. If we don't even know the commandments how do we know whether is it from the Holy Spirit as the Bible talks about testing the spirits.

1 John 4:1 Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits, whether they are of God; because many false prophets have gone out into the world.

So what are the documented 10 Commandments of God?
The modern values from the 10 Commandments:

(this is quoted from Pastor Tan Ye Peng's sermon: Built To Last: #1 LOYALTY #2 COMMITMENT #3 RESPECT #4 ACCOUNTABILITY/Connectedness #5 FAMILY
#6 LOVE (Forgiveness & Mercy) #7 FAITHFULNESS/trustworthy #8 HARD WORK
#10 GENEROSITY)

In life we should never be satisfied at where we are but we should always constantly renew the Pillars of Our Life so that we will have a greater breakthrough in our life from glory to glory! Let's live the New Life!

NLS 2011 (2) Pillars of Life

2011-07-13T17:40:00.008+08:00

New Life Series 2011: Pillars Of Life

John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

My previous post talks about coming out of your old life, 3 years ago I've made a decision to come out of it as I felt like everything was like taken away from me. The New Life is a whole new mindset and path because the old is for self (or for the theif, the devil) and the new is for God. That's why the Bible says that we can live it to the full becasue it is for Him and His purpose. The Spirit of God will help us to complete our God given purpose for our New Life.

Your life is not just about yourself but is what you can do for others and for God. Like what I've said, 3 years ago I was challanged in a few areas of my old life and I wanna spend sometime sharing the things that the theif wants to steal from you and the things God want to restore/renew in your life.

Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

The most important thing in your life is none other than God, seek Him first and all these things (or pillars) will be added to you (having it to the full).

The Pillars of Life

1. The Pillar of Family

This is a very import Pillar of Life, for me this is the first thing (pillar) that was stolen away (in a way) and I have to find somewhere else to live. Thank God that this is also the first pillar God has restored (as it is the most important pillar) after all other pillars were stolen away one by one. Family support is going to be the core support of your life, it will affect your character and self image. Therefore spend quality time with your family, talk things out with love and I believe God will make your family full of His love in His time.

2. The Pillar of Friendship

When almost all of my old friends were stolen away 3 years ago, it's really a time for me to reflect about myself and what I have to change for this pillar in my New Life, being a real friend in my relationship life. (Will share more of this pillar in the later entry) God will restore this pillar through an exisitng faithful friend or a new friend, once you are willing to change for God, He will send the right people to help you and to support your other Pillars of Life too.

3. The Pillar of Creativity

I'm not talking about creative arts or about a job, similar to a job, creativity is similar to a job: to produce, productivity, to create

but the difference is that it is not just a job but a God given mandate to produce something that is unique, that is in yourself. God wants to restore a job, a work to a purpose, a message.

3 years ago I was working at my first full time job and because of all the trials and tribulations I encountered in the Pillars of Life, I felt challanged in this pillar too by doing the routine over and over again but when God step in and gave me a new direction bit by bit, I found my joy/faithfulness in work again with a new unique passion. From that day onwards I never stop visualizing about the new passion that was given to me and has never stop getting excited about this Pillar of Creativity in my New Life!

4. The Pillar of Physcial and Emotional Life

This is also a very important pillar as it will determine how far you will go for The Pillar of Frienship and Creativity!
1 Thessalonians 5:23 [ Blessing and Admonition ] Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely; and may your whole spirit, soul, and body be preserved blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.

3 years ago I was really really discouraged and that was when I found a hobbie (Jogging) good for the soul and body. Your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit and you gotto maintain it well so that you can hear clearly from the Lord and you will not die before your time. Have enough of rest so that you will have a healthy emotion! The Bible says that we are a living soul and therefore your soul have needs to be fullfilled, it is ok to do something you like just like eating as balance is the key of life.

Many people believe the soul consists of the heart and mind,

Mark 12:30 And you shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength.’ This is the first commandment.

Therefore do pray in the Holy Spirit often as it is a direct communication with God to build up yourself in the most holy faith to love God more with your heart. Emotions like faith, fear, trauma came from the heart I believe because when someone was shocked, the person will hold the heart and not the mind. (I will share about the mind in the next entry.) Your heart must be constantly filled with the Holy Spirit to have a healthy emotion for God.

Jude 1:20 [ Maintain Your Life with God ] But you, beloved, building yourselves up on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Spirit,

Build up your spiritman by praying in the Spirit and let your spirit lead your soul and body. 3 years ago I was really really negative and very often when I prayed in the Spirit, faith will begin to arise in my heart and negative thoughts just stopped coming in. Because your heart emotion will affect your mind and vice versa, therefore you gotto understand/experience the New Life not just by your mind but by your heart!

Proverbs 3:26 For the LORD will be your confidence, And will keep your foot from being caught.

NLS 2011 (1) Walkout of Ur Life

2011-07-01T09:13:00.002+08:00

New Life Series 2011: Walk Out Of Your Life

Isaiah 43:19 Behold, I will do a new thing, Now it shall spring forth; Shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness And rivers in the desert.

You know back in 2007 close to year end I encountered my wilderness and dessert. God opened a road, a river for me that leads to a New Life and I don't really know what God has installed for me in my New Life.

Still remeber about the New Life Series I shared 3 years ago on 2008? I shared about investing seeds for different aspect of new life and now I say lots of time the returns can be more than what we expect. Right now the seeds have grown in an unexpected way and the direction of new life is much more mature than ever before due to every single seeds planted in New Life back then on 2008.

Sometimes you just need to walk out in faith like Abraham to travel to the promised land without knowing an exact direction and I can assure you it will be exciting and fullfilling! Live a life of no regrets!

New Life Begins

2011-06-10T16:26:00.005+08:00

Went to China and HK two months ago. Will update the journey pictures through FB.

Behold, the birth of my new life. I have been talking about it for years and now is the time to shine! Will update more about my new life in detail. Stay tune!

Road to opportunity!

2011-03-01T01:24:00.003+08:00

This year I spent my CNY at my homeground! Finally after 3 years of wandering, I'm back home! Most of the time I was drinking Chividori (Dunno if I spelled it correctly) with mixers and watching Starhub free channels. Really enjoyed myself as work can be abit tough recently.

I was transfered to the other section due to lack of manpower and two of us are doing 4 person's job. We are still preservering, we have to... and I really pray that our rescue team will be here soon to help us.

Oh ya.. also just got an update that this year I don't need to go for re-service! So... this year is really a good time for me to go all out for my dream! There will not be any schedule spoiler this year.

One more good thing to update, finally have the chance to serve one bro. Really enjoyed this opportunity, it's indeed it's better to give than to receive! I really believe this will be a great start into something great!

Black Road 8th Anniversary: 2011 Year of Restoration!!!

2011-01-10T23:29:00.005+08:00

Firstly I'm gonna give myself a big big clap! Because not many can sustain their blogging habit for 8 years! Man.. thats long! But last month was also a special annivesary with God! 10 years of journey with God! I remember taking my first step of faith and responded to the altar call to receive Christ! I pray that God you will watch over me, that I will put you first in my life.

Last year was a great year taking one step closer to my dream and completed ICT3. Passed my IPPT for the first time with $100 inccentive! Not forgetting my new job and have been working there for more than half a year, everything is good! Thank God for everything!

But I believe this year will be even better, I believe this year I can easily complete ICT4 + a deployment, I believe this year I will be ready for my dream and I believe my walk with God will come to a whole new level!

Indeed I really believe this year will be a year of restoration, where God is blessing me back what I have lost 30 fold, 60 fold, 100 fold! I wish you all the best too! Let's exchange good news soon.

Christmas and New Year 2010

2011-01-03T20:04:00.004+08:00

2010... I did something different, Christmas Eve: buffet at kuishino, Christmas Day: watching Christmas drama, Christmas Night: cinema movie "xiao dao siao" and Sunday night: Watching BPL at Marina Bay Sands (Really like the place, what a beautiful place! I'm proud of Singapore.)

Follow by new year eve party! And here I am in the year 2011 and approaching to my blog annivesary again! I'll talk more about my life in my next post. See ya!

This Decmeber 10th Annivesary

2010-09-20T22:09:00.003+08:00

This December will be my 10th Annivesary with God. I've been wondering something recently in my life, no matter how much I accomplish will never compare to my relationship with God.

This is a very special year for me, 25th year of this life given from Him and 10 years of walk with Him... I really hope I can know Him more... I still have time and it's never too late, I have lived half of my young adult life and next half of it will be even better with His love. It's always by His love we can be stronger as He gives us the strength to move to greater heights.

This December will be a great month!

25 Years Of Goodness From Him (Love, Hope and Faith)

2010-08-09T21:47:00.003+08:00

Last week celebrated our church birthday, yesterday celebrated my birthday (followed by YOG Duty at night) and today our nation's birthday.

1. Love (Church Birthday)

I want to thank every single one of you for your birthday wishes and presents! Year by year I thank God for placing you guys in my life, especially after we celebrated our church 21st annivesary! The main theme in the annivesary was love and right now I just feel more thankful for you guys than ever before, it's not easy to have faithful friends like you guys!

2. Hope (Singapore's Birthday)

Indeed like what we sing in the theme song for NDP 2010 (Song For Singapore),

"Come together everybody, Fly the flag and share our story, live our wildest dreams."

Let's come together as brothers and sisters flying our flag and share our story that we dare to live our wildest dreams! Let's encourage one another to live our dreams and really do something we really like, nothing is too difficult if we believe! Don't wait till you get old and said like how you hope you did this and that when you were young but let's live it and become an inspiration to the youth!

3. Faith (My Birthday)

Celebrated my 25th year of life, bittersweet and fruitful but I know that greatest things have yet to come as I know that His hand is always with me, I can feel it in these years and I know that in the next 25 years is going to get even better and better! In these few years I know and I'm expecting miracles to happen again and again until it overflows to every single one of you! I want to be a blessing to you guys as my dear friends, relatives and family members! I really do! I will surely make it through Him!

Racing With Time

2010-07-10T02:19:00.005+08:00

I skipped blogging for one month as last month was a happening month.

1. My unit will get me involved in the YOG event at Aug this month. (that means I might need to work on my birthday.)

2. I am now working with NCS @ Bedok

Its really cool to work in somewhere just nearby my place and I've already worked for the company for a month +. I'm always racing with time! Well... I really have no time to lose... gotto really plan and work hard for my future. Gotto really get serious, I'm one step ahead of my dream but I gotto make another step real soon! Time will never wait for us and lets not live this life with regrets! Do what you must now! Live your everyday to the fullest. (I'm reminding myself again)

No Room To Give Up

2010-05-13T23:09:00.004+08:00

Went to KL last fri and after I heard some comments from frens, think I really have do some self reflection, have I really change all these years? I dunno.. only time will tell, I'm afraid of myself but I guess I just gotto be brave and move on... no matter what I won't give up... I dun wan to.

ICT 3 Reservist

2010-04-19T02:08:00.005+08:00

Okie today is the beginning of my ICT 3 Reservist, it will be all the way until 26 April. So I will not be available during this period of time =) anyway I'll update about my reservist on this entry. Take care everyone!

UPDATE: WE FAILED OUR EXERCISE. Nothing much I can say now =(

2010-03-08T00:46:00.008+08:00

Something that is my very own

CNY trip for this year is desaru, you may check my FB for few of trip pics and at the same time I received my recall order for this year! My next reservist will be at April and I heard that we will be promoted if we passed our IPPT.

Bought a transparent writting board, it's super cool for memorizing stuff and planning stuff!

So what I have been doing? I've been developing something I felt that it should be unique and fresh, I want to create something that is my very own art/theory and sure I need God's wisdom for it.

Anyway... stay tune for it, I really want to update you guys very soon as I believe I'll progress to a level that I have something to show.

2010-01-10T16:35:00.004+08:00

Black Road 7th Anniversary:
2010 Gathering of Stones

Firstly I wanted to say a belated merry christmas and a happy new year! Have been very busy but today happen to be my free day, so I just want to conclude the goodness of God in 2009 and welcome 2010. It is already the 7th anniversary of my blog! Wow.. you can really see how new my life can be through God! Thank you for staying with me for so long and I pray that this year will be your best year yet!

Last year indeed was the best year yet but I really believe 2010 will be a even better year for us. It will be from glory to glory, strength to strength! Personally I felt that the sowing season is over and this year I will be gathering stones for a greater purpose, the real thing is coming and I am preparing for it!

Thanksgiving for 2009:
1. Thank God that I completed my last residential training in re-servist ICT 2
2. Thank God that I got my Class 3 Manual Driving Lisence
3. Thank God for my increment and bonus (Recession Proof: the recession didn't affect it at all!)

What will I be expecting in 2010?
1. Getting in to a university
2. Complete ICT 3 maintainance training with an exercise
3. Career advancement

But most importantly above everything, I pray that I will love God more than ever before.

2009-12-10T13:19:00.003+08:00

Reason for cutting down on blogging

http://www.konghee.com/www/2009/12/power-of-fasting/

Intresting blog on the topic of fasting. Overview of fasting: biological, spiritual, things to note/tips etc. Do read if you have the time =)

Think you guys realized I have not been blogging very often and today I just want to explain why and what happened to me ever since from the previous post of my blog?

Reason for cutting down on blogging:

Getting quite busy

I have been very busy recently and we always say this in church, "Tired people change the world." That I think it is a good reason!

But do note:

1. The beauty of blogging is:

We can express fully what we want and I'll try to do that as much as possible when I have the time. (I'll at least do a post in a month)

2. Events highlights:

Most of the time you can find it in my FB through Pictures and Sharings/comments

3. Updates & Self expression:

Well when I'm busy I'll express and update in FB and Tweeter with a simplified one line format

2009-10-22T01:25:00.003+08:00

Care Less For Our Face

Last week went to Jurong West and Heart of God for Oct Morning/Evening Prayer. Well recently really have a very tight schedule, lots of OT and stuffs to work on.

Well.. for tonight I just want to share some simple things that touched my heart abit just a moment ago. Went for a wake svc and the Pastor told us how he realized his uniqueness and value in God. For me... I have that kind of similar revelation not long ago and it's really one of the key to live a stable life.

Gotto stand firm for yourself, on your value on God... You don't need to worry what others are thinking, just be in the light and speak the truth in love. Don't keep things to yourself and act like nothing happened! Humble yourself as we are all sinners and there's really nothing great about us! Just careless about your face and I guarantee you will have a bigger heart to take more than what you can take and to be a person that will be in the light to stand up/speak up for the truth.

So if there's something you think you need to express and it's the right thing to do in the eyes of God, just do it... care less about your face!

2009-10-11T04:18:00.004+08:00

10 Oct 2009 Saturday

What's 10 Oct 2009 to you? For me.. It's a busy day.

Started the day with a wedding service and then rushed to my own service at expo. Then at night had dinner with cell group followed by a birthday celebration at the maska pub and after that joined my cell group for a midnight movie "500 Days of Summer".

To me... 10 Oct 2009 is a busy yet fruitful day, I did something I wanted to do, today... though it's because I have to. Sounds confusing huh? Well.. you interpret that... but for now I know I don't need to do it again as I'm done with one of my checklist of life. Time to move on to greater things.

2009-09-24T09:31:00.002+08:00

Too Good To Take It Lightly

Last Thursday attended Overnight Prayer Meeting and Friday went to work. It's a memoriable night.

Well... recently I have been busy doing some career upgrade and I hope in the months to come I will have something good to post here. Anyway just felt that good things don't come so easily, maybe that's why it's good, it's too good for us to take it lightly and so I felt no matter what we are doing right now, gotto stay positive, gotto give yourself or even others sometime.

People need time to reflect, to recover and to grow stronger for good things.

2009-09-03T02:04:00.003+08:00

Sleepless Excitement

I planned to sleep early tonight but I'm just too caught up by what I'm going through recently. (Can't sleep.) I've been very excited recently as I'm close to a great great breakthrough!

Just look through the logbook of my life and I can really see the goodness of God in my life. It's amazing and I know it's only by God's grace. I realized something, in the lowest point of your life you might find it hard to see the end of a tunnel but if you never give up, you will breakthrough!

I just want to say a real man really needs to go through some tough tests to go to another level and right now I just sense that I'm going through another set of tests but this time it is not my lowest point of life again but the most exciting part of my life. It's another season, a season to step out, a season to take risk and a season of hardwork! I really really hope that I can reveal it very very soon to you guys, so guys... do say a prayer for me and let us be an encouragement to one another through our daily life. Jia you everyone! I'll hear your breakthrough news soon =)

2009-08-22T03:33:00.003+08:00

Last Cell Group Meeting in E254

Last week was a great Morning Prayer/Evening Prayer week for August. I went to three different premises: Jurong West, Riverwalk and Heart of God as I have cleared some annual leaves last week.

Just finished my last cell group meeting with E254 and thank God for this great cell group I have! About 3 years together and now one big group of us will be transfering to another cell group.

I just want to thank my leader Shixiong for his leadership and discipleship in my life. He has taught me alot of things from God that makes me a better person. 3 years in this cell group, gone through tears and joys together with everyone. Let's keep it up in life as we say goodbye tonight.

2009-08-13T01:32:00.002+08:00

His will for My Church, My Life and My Nation (2 Days Left For Aug Morning/Evening Prayer)

I want to thank God for my pay increment and also for the 3 Annivesaries event. So what's the 3 Annivesaries? Church 20th Annivesary (Church Birthday), My Annivesary (My Birthday) & Singapore Annivesary (Singapore's Birthday just one day after my birthday).

I think I had my best birthday celebration this year, thank you guys for all the wishes and presents! Spent 4 days celebrating my birthday with different groups of people like colleagues, family and friends.

Well.. For this year's NDP, I personally like the theme song "What Do You See" because in life it's really about how wide and how far you can see and dream! Personally I sense something similar with the 3 Annivesaries, It's not just about My Church, My Life and My Nation but it's more than that.

This year in our church 20th Annivesary, I'm so touched by hearing what God is doing through our church and at that moment I realized something... you won't be satisfied with how successful you become but you can only be satisfied by God Himself! By getting closer and closer to Him with a heart for Him and to do His will.

Maybe you say everything you did now is for God... but do you really mean it? Don't answer that too fast... what if one day you lose everything? While it's good to dream big for God but for me personally (I'm pondering about this recently):

yes I think I should work harder, should be more successful but yet at the same time if all these things are gone, will I still carry out my purpose without these things? I guess that's one way to check your heart for Him.

2009-07-30T01:20:00.003+08:00

Postmodernism

I've resumed my various trainings (Physical Traning and some other skills).

What is the defination of postmodernism? You need to know what it means before using this word.

You may take a look at my Pastor's writting to learn more:
http://www.konghee.com/www/2009/07/postmodernism/

2009-07-20T23:24:00.003+08:00

=[HERO]=

I've cleared ICT2, went to work, went for my daily running and static workouts, got sick, doc asked me to stop my running and workouts for a week. Argh...

A male childhood dream is to become a superhero but a real man's dream is to be the Prophet, Priest and King. To be more like our HERO and to be a hero to our wife and our family.

So as to be a reflection of the true HERO.

Can I do it this time? Can I make a difference? We'll see... real soon we'll see.

2009-07-10T04:16:00.002+08:00

A Female's Heart & A Man's Dream (Self Quarantine @ Home as KINS UNIT ICT 2 is suspended WEF frm 8 Jul - 13 Jul, as one of our fellow trooper is H1N1 positive)

So my ICT2 has ended early thanks to H1N1, these few days we have been doing shooting test, our tactical training and some law refresher lessons. We were asked to self quarantine ourselves all the way till next tue, my working day.

That means I'm super free, have been reading devotional (Have to regain my spiritual stamina)and watching korean drama series.

So what's the korean drama about?

A fat and blur guy became slim, good looking and famous after 8 years, he is the PGA Golf champion and wanted to take revenge on someone he loves but this gal he loves was someone who hurt him 8 years ago. In the end the guy aborted his revenge (as they were couple once again) but didn't have the chance to tell her that she ever thought of taking revenge for what she did and she ended up knowing it from another person.

Well this is the intresting part, she cried and told the guy that she has now understood how he felt and she said sorry to him, felling down on the ground she continued, "Now I can't forgive you, tell me... what to do now?!" as if she was begging the guy for an ans. - If you want to know the ending or the whole story here's the title "Oh Su Jung Vs Karl".

When I saw this part of the story I begin to understand more about the heart of a women, like the guy I felt so sorry for that gal in the show but it seems like it is too late to said anything at that moment. When the guy was back in love with the gal out of the sudden the hatred is gone and he realized how childish was he but he didn't have the chance to tell her!

Few Important Lessons For The Guys Out There:
1. If you really love a gal, you have to be quick to forgive or else you will end up doing something worst than what she did.

2. If you have something important to say to a gal, better tell her asap or else when she really get hurt it might be too late for you to say anything.

3. Gals are emotional being, so don't hurt them!!!

We guys gotto learn it through the hard way and it's never easy to be a good boyfriend. I gotto be sure of myself that I will treat my girl well, I really want to... you know right now at my age people treat me as if a sinner when they get to know that I'm single but am I ready? Do I really love that girl? There's alot of things to consider and I really dun wan to move too fast.

A Man's Dream?

Now enough about the sad thing and back to the show... that guy in the show spent 8 years to become a successful, slim, handsome, knowlegable and rich golf player,

people... there's no shortcut to success. That guy in the show spent 8 years!! Wow that's long.. but the motivation of his success is hatred. Let's see in the next 8 years what God can do through my life for His glory, let me be motivated by His love and I'm really not going after fame but if one day if I really become famous... let me decrease and let Him increase.

2009-07-03T23:58:00.005+08:00

A Recovery Rule? (Around 1 Week + Left For ICT 2)

It's my second bookout for my ICT 2 re-service training, I reached home at 10+pm and this week we have gone through alot of deployment/field/tactical lessons. We have an operation next weekend and therefore I will not be available during our operation. Well.. one thing that I didn't mentioned at my previous post is that lots of my colleague defered this ICT 2 training and our unit strength for this training is alot lesser than last year.

Talking about people... during my bus journey back to camp I've been wondering of something that I probably need more time to figure it out but I must say during this period of re-service, few things came into my mind and couple of interesting things happened. It's about relationship recovery and maybe I'll share it when I have the time. See you again when I'm back =)

2009-06-28T10:28:00.002+08:00

Around 2 Weeks Left for ICT 2

Im having my first bookout and later I'll be booking in again. We have been learning 3 kinds of weapons and only given one day to memorize the mechanism of one of the weapon for the test on the next day. Thank God I passed!

I know tomorrow we will be doing tactical training and will be having my IPPT on this coming thursday! All the best to me ya? I'm having muscle ache now.. so gonna rest more.
We talk again next week when I book out again =)

2009-06-23T00:25:00.004+08:00

2 Days Left Before ICT 2

Took leave today to pack my training bag and to do a last pre training before In Camp Training 2 (ICT2). Last Sun me and my bro treated my whole family Subway! I'm quite surprised that my mum enjoyed Subway. Well.. my dad enjoyed the meal too and we really had a great time together.

(Away From Home From 25 June 09 - 13 July 09)
So here comes the Police KINS Unit residential/in camp training again and like what I've said I will not be contactable most of the time in weekdays (most of the time we have night training) and most of the weekends I can be contacted (guess I'll be confined in the last week of training).

I'm enjoying my last 2 days of civilian life right now and during Father's Day I actually did spend abit of time praying for my Re-Service as I really want to pray to my heavenly Father for protection and strength for the training. (Hopefully this time it will be like a resort life :p)

So new friends, like last year the house rule of my blog is you really got to say a prayer for me before I go Re-Service lol... nah joking... don't take it seriously k? But I'll appreciate your prayers. I'll update you guys shortly after my first book out.

"now gogogo!!!"

2009-06-19T00:02:00.004+08:00

From ICT 1 - ICT 2 (1 Week Before ICT 2 25 June - 13 Jul)

Last week was a power packed week, the 3 days of Bible School were just awesome and thank God for His presence moving so strong in all the Morning Prayers! Well I'm just one week away from ICT 2 and I'll be almost 3 weeks away from home 25 June - 13 Jul, so during this period of time it's abit hard for you guys to contact me but I'll be available at most of the time at weekends. Gonna miss my bed.. haha...

Well... it's almost exactly one year since the last re-service and I must say I just felt I've yet again gone through alot but this time it's from glory to glory. I've experienced breakthrough in my career, vision, finance, relationship etc.. but the most important of all I know that it's only by the Grace of God. (I can get abit emotional while sharing.)

Day by day I need to lean on Him all the time, I have to... I can't trust on my own strength anymore.. my flesh has failed me again and again until I told myself I had enough of it... and I just sense that the windows of Heaven is open right now in my life. (lots of things is really happening right now.) I know that indeed greater things have yet to come and I believe it's going to get even better and better.

2009-06-07T23:45:00.005+08:00

Training For Re-Service ICT2 (1 Day Before June Morning\Evening Prayer)

Got my cert for last week's course and I really enjoyed out of office for a week as it is kinda like a retreat from work. But of course.. it's still tiring as they really covered lots of things. This week I'll be attending 3 days of Bible School from Mon to Wed and not to forget it's our Morning\Evening Prayer Week! Already God is doing something in my life and I really believe that there's more on the way!

Think you guys know I'm going back for re-service 2nd In Camp Training and I really believe that it will be a smooth and easy one. I am currently preparing for my IPPT and the training itself. This morning I went for a run with Josephine, one round @ Bedok Reservoir, (just a maybe 5 Mins ++ walking distance from home) Took about 30 mins to finish the run and I'm impressed with my performance that I can finish it as I haven't been running for about half a year!

The next training will probably be the actual 2.4 training as I want to improve on my timing and of course not to forget my daily standing broad jump training. (my weakest item. Shhh...)

2009-06-02T21:51:00.003+08:00

Faithfulness

This week I'm on course and I'm quite happy about it though studying can be tiring but the level of responsibility is pretty ok with me.

I'm currently in the midst of preparing myself for my re-service which will start at 25 June of this year but before I get in, there's something I would really want to try and this thing will determine my destiny. I can't tell you guys what is it yet as I feel that it is not the right time yet but I really believe you guys will hear it very soon.

I got to go now, gotto prepare for that thing! But before I leave let me share a joke with you:

Relationship Theory Explained By IT Admin:
Single Life - A brand new system

Just got attached - Installed a brand new OS

Dating Period - As it is a brand new OS, encountered lots of system bugs! Maybe from Parents, Friends, Incompatibilities etc..

Married - By this time all the bugs should be solved as we can do some system updates from time to time but new OS is coming out very soon!

nonono... it's just a joke.. I really think we should stay focus in our marriage and purpose in life. Goodnight =)

2009-05-29T00:12:00.002+08:00

What's Ahead

"Try it harder next time."

"For now... just concentrate on what's ahead, a people and a unit."

2009-05-19T01:22:00.002+08:00

Priviledge And Chance

Just came back from fellowship @ our city flyer love the world bar and I'll be back to our city flyer tomorrow night to celebrate my dad's bday. (by right is tonight as it is already 1.25am right now.)

Anyway... Just now somebody encouraged me and gave me a chance that I feel that it's a grace. It has really brighten up my day but I can't tell you guys what is it. What a priviledge... What a chance... I'm finally closer to my dreams!

I felt that sometimes we have to gone through this similar experience to really learn to treasure something in life and to feel almost unworthy for something you take it for granted. In life isn't it the same? When we lose something that we take it for granted and somehow we got it back by grace, we have one last decision to make and that is whether will we take grace for granted yet again? I pray that this time I will never ever take grace for granted as it will determine my destiny.

2009-05-13T23:50:00.003+08:00

Dealing With Relationship

Recently I felt so burden to do more in relationship because we need to know something, lots of struggles and problems came from relationship. Well you might be saying you are too busy for relationship because all the hurting, cheating and all other dissapointments came from people but I say the more we need to deal with it and not to run away from it! (no matter what)

We need to know the right people in order to suceed in life, it's not how much you know but who you know. (how much knwoledge one can contain? That's why we have internet for Information Exchange)

I've fell from this area so many times and nearly gave up in my previous slip in life (which is the worst one) but in the end, thank God that I didn't gave up and here I am breaking through from the place I slipped.

2009-05-06T00:25:00.004+08:00

After Standing In @ April 09

Cedric suggested I RSS Feed my blog and I have done it. So do subscribe to my blog =)

So after standing in for my exec for about 1 month, I really felt quite exhausted as I have been working in this kind of cycle continously for 1.5 months "5 working days with 1 Offday & 7 working days with 1 Offday" but at least my department is still surviving. I'm currently facing some minor problems in my current workplace but I'm not giving up that soon and I'll fight to the end as we know problems are meant to be solved! I guess I still have 1 more OT to go this Sun.

Anyway... I roughly have in mind what I want to do after my re-service but first thing...
I GOTTO START MY PHYSICAL TRAINING NOW!

2009-04-21T21:23:00.002+08:00

E.M.I.L

If you are very into facebook:

Emil has analyzed own name and explored secret meaning of own name:
E: Enlightened
M: Mature
I: Imaginative
L: Likeable

This is exactly what I'm looking for in this year.
Enlightened for Education
A Mature and Likeable Character
Being Imaginative for Dreams. I'm not just dreaming.

2009-04-13T23:46:00.005+08:00

Easter 2009 Special

Last week was an awesome Easter Weekend! Well.. just came back from dinner with my colleagues and not feeling really well right now cos I have problems digesting the food right now in my stomach. (So I'll make this post short)

I guess Easter is a season for us to be reminded about giving up the old for the new and believing that we'll have the power for things to come. That's just a very general way to say it for everyone including non-believers, one thing we need to learn from Jesus is to let go and let God.

Sometimes you just need to believe and confess, stop trying with your own strength as we human needs help! I don't know about you but for me I realize no matter how hard I try I will still be imperfect in someway and in this season I'm going widen my heart and let God move like never before.

2009-03-31T22:59:00.003+08:00

A Man's Thing

Once again we are in the midst of one week Morning and Evening (April) Prayer for every alternate month this year and I believe I really need it as I really think this year is really a year of challange and of course I know I will be able to get over everything.

I guess pride and greed can be a man's greatest downfall. Well... for a man's pride, sometimes to admit that I'm wrong is really difficult and it is not as simple as saying it but we gotto mean it with our heart because what others did to you may not be right too.

But to me personally in life we really gotto forgive and admit our mistake, if someone that is dear to you somehow dissapoints you, it might caused you to become someone you are not and this is proven by the experts.

Now why am I saying all these things? Because by the end of this year I have a battle to face and I really want to fight for peace and leave with peace.

2009-03-23T09:49:00.002+08:00

To Face My Career Challenge 1st

Recently have been living a very occupied life and in the midst of all these things deep inside my heart I have a great desire to take this moutain of my life.

Besides physical training for my re-service, I have to stand in for my Exec once again and his is my direct boss. This time I will be standing in for about a month and I really want to believe for protection and everything's gonna be good. So most probably I'll talk more about life as I go on from here, reflected alot about life recently as people shared their experiences and thinking, so maybe I'll share abit next time.

Well.. I hope you guys are well and I long to hear from you guys again. Take care!

2009-03-03T00:20:00.004+08:00

Goal Setting For Oct 2009

So what am I expecting in these few months? Will be concentrating on my Fitness as I am going for my re-service real soon. Can't afford to fail this time round as we gotto stay in another week for PT if we happen to fail our IPPT.

Well besides Fitness I guess Education is really important, infact part of the reason for being fit is for the sake of completing a training (or we can call it Education). So this year I'll be reading alot as I focus on Education and I really believe in prosperity in every area of our life. Therefore, I have lots of things to read up! Things of the spirit, things regarding my career, things regarding about character, things that keep me entertained and alot more! (Knowledge is power!)

I really have a dream in October and I really pray that I can acheive it because it means alot to me and I believe to my dear Friend too.

2009-02-23T00:22:00.003+08:00

2nd Recall Order

I just received my recall order for my re-service ICT 2 (In Camp Training 2). Didn't expect it to come so early but still I thank God that my unit training will start at June. I thought it is good to clear my ICT 2 first before I proceed with other stuff because I guess those things will take me quite a while to complete it.

2009-02-16T00:41:00.015+08:00

A Special Val Day 2009 Entry

Woohoo! Went through the Feb Morning/Evening prayer and I know deep inside my heart that I know I will experience a breakthrough this month. What a busy week as we have prayer, Val Day Special Cell Group Meeting and Val Day Svc 2009 follow by our single night! Well... dun worry in this entry, I'll be sharing with you how I spent my Val Day 09 and some of the things from my heart. I guess this year I'm going to change my writting style abit again (I talked more about myself in the year 2008) and you will not only see me just talking more about myself but also more about my social lifestyle or should I just say lifestyle? (We'll see...)

I spent my Val Day Eve with a 90% female cell group together with my 75% (I guess) cell group. My CGL together with another female CGL arranged lots of fun games for us but I think the fun part is actually when we guys gave the gals a surprise by appreciating them (all the guys are the waiters and I'm a walking ice cream topping machine! Nah.. just joking.. I am a waiter!)

Now let's talk about yesterday the actual Val Day, as you guys might know my church is right now in the middle of the relationship series and we are really blessed and equipped by that msg (seriously we really learn alot alot of things! It's really very practical.)

After that we went to our single night outing and we talk alot about boys and gers stuff and really get to know lots of things from a gal's point of view and of course we learn alot from our fellow brothers too!

Well here are some of the photo highlights:

Haha.. as you can see in the photo, I dun know how to smile to the camera and they always have to make me laugh :(

Let me just end with an ans to a question that recently I received from few of my friends. Well the question is, when I'm going to get attached? Or Do I currently have any aim? Let me just say that I'm still getting ready (no aim yet) and at the same time looking around. (This feb I have a big day and probably after that I can spent more time thinking about my romantic life) You know.. I'm actually a very faithful person but then I dunno how to express it and I always express it in an opposite way and like what we learnt in the val day msg, communication is the key of life and I guess I used to be someone that will keep things to myself. I believe I'm no longer like this anymore haha.. you know people do change but anyway... practice makes perfect and I don't want to go deep into that topic but ya... getting ready (no aim yet) and looking around but I'll clear my big day first before I do anything.

When I'm ready... I'll just go for it.. fast and sharp and things will just happen in an instance perheps :)

2009-02-09T01:12:00.005+08:00

A Suggestion To Success (Few Hours Before Feb Morning/Evening Prayer)

Will be going for Morning Prayer at our Jurong church in a few hours time and I really believe that this month will be a month of breakthrough as I really have something very important to work on. Well this time round for our prayer week, we have Evening Prayer too for people who cannot make it on morning. This time round for Morning Prayer still we will have 3 premises with our Affliate Churches: Heart Of God Church @ Paya Lebar, Church Of Singapore at Kreta Ayer People's Theatre and our very own City Harvest Church @ Jurong. For evening prayer, we have 2 premises: our City Harvest Church @ Jurong and Riverwalk (a place for us to have Bible Classes and Prayer).

I really believe that prayer is the key to success in the area of finance as ideas from heaven will just come as the Holy Spirit speaks and that means we can't stay there and do nothing if we want to be rich.

Few people in this season told me similar things that make sense, if you want to be rich there's a few ways:

1. Business
2. Stock Market
3. Property

and these things required creativity! There is risk for creativity but if you want to be rich you need to be like God as He is a creative God. You can work all your life and save all your life but if you afraid to risk for creativity, you are going live a life of regret. Do you agree?

2009-02-04T22:34:00.002+08:00

First Challenge @ Feb 09

Just want to thank God for the bonus I received, I'm impressed with the amount as it is recession now. The first challenge of the year is not how much I'm going to receive but is is something else and this thing will determine my direction for the next few months.

Guess you can feel how important is this thing as I kick off the 2nd month of the year.

2009-01-29T01:41:00.003+08:00

CNY Holiday Trip @ 2009

I'm back from Malaysia! Once again I wanna wish you a Happy Niu Year. Thank God that it is quite an unforgetable trip. 1st Day we went to Ipoh and heard that it's a place for beauties, well... saw a few shop promoters from Ipoh and they are indeed beautiful haha..

2nd day went to the Malaysia last mining boat in Ipoh I think and then (the next two places we went were the places I went before when I was really young) we went to KL visited the very very high tech Twin Tower (The tallest twin tower in the world).

Then the 3rd day we went to genting highland, now the only thing I like about the place is the 17 Degree Celsius whether, the place is always packed with people and most of them are smokers. After that we went to Chinatown and KL Tower (heard that it's a main media station if I am not wrong).

4th Day we visited the pewter factory and then here I am home sweet home. Well.. how about the food during the trip? I think we only have one unforgetable super nice meal which is the Ipoh's towgay chicken! Oh.. ya the hotel, the first hotel which is in Ipoh was okay (a 4 star hotel) but the 2nd one (a 5 star hotel) was excellent just that the service is not that perfect.

During the trip, really enjoy the presence of my fellow tourmates but I guess I can be a better tourmate though. Which means that I have lots to improve in the area of relationship and also during the trip I've been thinking and thinking alot about which part of my life is getting wrong and things like that. I guess lots of things came to my mind, my past failures and mistakes, I guess I kinda have a rough idea of how to move on in the area of relationship and career in 2009. I spent some time praying and crying out for breakthrough and somehow I have the peace that though I acheived quite abit in 2008 but 2009 will be the best year yet in life!

I pray that you will have that kind of peace too in life. :)

2009-01-24T01:42:00.003+08:00

Happy CNY 2009

All right now... in a few hours time we will be going to Ipoh, KL, Genting and back to KL once again. I will not be contactable during this period of time, (don't want to be distracted with the things of our island city) so I'll be back on Tue night and hopefully I can share more about the trip in my next post. So I'll wish you guys in advance HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR, we will prosper in all things as our soul prosper this year in 2009!

2009-01-20T20:25:00.002+08:00

How Hard It Should Be?

well well well.... Chinese New Year (CNY) is approaching and this year I hope you will have a unique CNY like me. Haha.. this year I'll be going to Malaysia for CNY yet again but this time is for holiday and we will not be visiting our relative. So... I think it will really be fun as it is our first time going for holiday at CNY.

All right.. so how are you guys recently? Haven't really have a heart to heart talk with you guys for a while as life is getting more and more busy just like most of the people around my life. For me.. I've been trying very very hard in life for breakthrough and sometimes things just don't work out well and we just got to accept it. That's part of our life, we just got deal with failure very often in life and recently I've been thinking how hard should I try? Or how hard should I try before I gave up? But after a few secs the word "give up" will always be erased from my mind, I mean in life especially this season after breaking through so much and now I'm going to give up? No way! It's a no way out thing... I will never give up and I will keep on trying, keep on trying...

2009-01-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

Approaching Black Road 6th Anniversary
Transition Part 4: Regrets

Just came back yesterday from our Malacca company retreat and I think it's kinda tiring to be honest but other than that It's quite fun. Well reached home at about 12am in the midnight and then straight away go back to work this morning. It's the last part of the topic "Transition" and probably after this will talk more about what I have posted previously about that 3 things I want to focus for this year.

Talking about my transition period, you will find that I'll always have a picture of regrets deep inside my mind (if you can see it) but then again, if I don't give myself some "rooms" for regrets then I'll probably end my life with regrets. A smart employer will look for someone who failed and never gave up and similarly God is not looking for a perfect person or people who is afraid to take risk but someone who will keep on trying despite of failure.

Yesterday after the Malacca trip, I took cab home and I've really learnt something important that day from the driver! He was telling me that he didn't really plan his life well and do the thing he really wanted to do. Now, he's living a life of ultimate regrets as he is currently in his senior period of life and he told me again and again with a very very serious warning tone about the importance of planning at my age.

Well, now let me recall 6 years of blogging... so much sorrows and regrets were written but I really believe that all these things will only serve as a kind of strength/hope for something greater that is going to happen in my life in the year 2009 and the years to come. I wish you all the best too for this year in 2009... come let's breakthrough!

2009-01-06T00:35:00.003+08:00

2009 End Of Sowing

Hi, wish you guys a Happy New Year! I enjoyed the countdown and fireworks display, after that we went to satay club for some satays and beer.

So here we are in the new year and again I know it's going to be the best year yet! Personally I am believing that this year I will finish up everything I started in the previous year and proceed to the last part of my sowing season.

Let me share with you what's my main direction for this year:

To invest in these three areas
1. Education

2. Relationship

3. Dreams

Not much left huh? Yea I think so too but it's going to take alot of effort to complete the Phase 2 aka the last phase of my Sowing Seeds Season and after that I'll be focusing on one specific thing. Well.. how about you? What's your direction for this new year?

2008-12-25T02:37:00.003+08:00

A Special Christmas Entry for 2008

Approaching Black Road 6th Anniversary
Transition Part 2 and 3

First I would like to say Merry Christmas! I understand it's been a while since my last update as my previous modem is out of order and I just replaced another modem yesterday. Well.. Just came back from my Christmas Eve Dinner with friends and we had a heart to heart talk together. It's just wonderful but there's more to say and I decided to share the essence of the topic with you tonight.

Transition Part 2: What's the correct mindset towards purpose?

Can I just start by asking you a question? What's your desire? Power? prosperity? Or some other thing? What if you can't get it? Well you say with faith I can do all things but are you trying to say you will always get what you want? You don't but even so... we still got to believe for more because we should never stop improving.

You also need to understand acknowledging yourself is another thing, we don't judge our standard through our jobscope or rank but character and walking in the right track is the main thing! I've learnt this the hard way all these years.

Transition Part 3: The adjustment we need

One thing I learnt through a time of transition, it might be something uncomfortable but sometimes it makes us know what's the thing that is sustainable and what is not. I used to think that this and that might be very important but end up feeling a waste of time to even think of that thing.

Well.. after a time of transition I find that my focus is getting more and more right in the sense and it's sustainable, it's not just a temp urge but a destiny that I can't run away from. Think i'm going to continue the last part of this topic "Transition" in the beginning of next year most probably as I start my new year goal setting. Need to wake up early tomorrow for church service, so probably.. I'll see you next year! Once again I wish you a Merry Merry Christmas!!!

2008-12-05T00:01:00.003+08:00

Approaching Black Road 6th Anniversary
Transition Part 1: Positions

Just came back from my driving lesson circuit training as I'm going to take my test very very soon, this is one of the busiest month in 2008 but this month is also a very special month to me as it is the month before my blog's anniversary. 6 years of blogging, gone through alot of things and as I countdown my blog's anniversary, let me share with you my life, my heart in the next 4 weeks of December.

I'm going to start off strong in the first part of the 4 part series of this topic "Transition". People will ask me this question, "what's your rank now?" I'm perfectly fine with the question but some friends like to conclude your destiny by your "rank" or current "rank".

Well.. firstly I do believe anytime, anyone can just promote suddenly without a warning :) but let me tell you something! I believe in influence and being yourself or who you really are and that includes your destiny, purpose etc. So please people, don't come and tell me (or anyone) that it is not my destiny to be in this rank or that rank because let me tell (teach) you something, our influence in life is not based on rank but character.

Sorry if I sound abit too strong but this is the foundation (I figured this out during one of my greatest Transition period in life) of my life and if you don't agree with what I wrote here, probably you will not agree on anything I am about to say in the rest of the entries for this month about Transition.

2008-11-30T00:30:00.004+08:00

December 2008: The Finale Again

Asian Conference 2008! What a great conference! It really impacted my life so much that I'm still abit lost in words now. All I can say now is... we gotto arise like never before! So this is the finale month for 2008, one of the busiest month for 2008! We are approaching to a new year yet at the same time the 6th Anniversary of Black Road (this blog).

I got 4 big events coming up, 2 big company events, 1 church big day and 1 important practical test for my driving lisense.

My dad will be back from China in the middle of the month of December, kinda miss him already and you know what? I always have this desire to do our favourite thing, want to have a guess what is it? Walking around the city, the heart of Singapore by foot and you will be surprise how many things have changed since the beginning of the year.

2008-11-16T03:21:00.006+08:00

21st Century Singaporean (4 Days Before Asia Conference 2008)

It's over. Oh.. I'm refering to my role as a stand in exec and everything end up well! (I think.) Anyway.. next wednesday I'll be clearing leaves for this great event we going to have: Asia Conference 2008. I believe this event is going to transform the whole Asia and it will be a time a breakthrough. So do come if you can, for more information about this event you can check with me or visit this website http://www.asiaconference.org.sg/

All right! Now let's talk about this great city: Singapore. Well... I believe behind every great nation, you will find great people with boldness to open up their hearts for creativity and possibilities.

I'm really proud that Singapore won the world-wide Motor Sport Facility of the Year. What else do we have? If I'm not wrong the largest reservoir in the whole world at Marina Bay with a beautiful city garden nearby the reservoir? It's amazing!

Now, let's zoom it closer to ourselves shall we? Do you agree we have alot to say about ourselves? Just like me for myself for example, I have alot to say about our nation, about our fellow Singaporean and about myself.

So let me just start with our fellow Singaporean: I guess the 21st Singaporean (maybe the whole world) is becoming more and more open about ourselves and most of us enjoy blogging about our lives.

Now, lets zoom it further to my blog and you can check whether is it true: you can check my entries 5 years back and the way I wrote my blog is totally a different style compared to my recent blog entries. What's the difference? I guess... I'm just being more open to people and I think I'm improving in expressing myself.

Let us open our hearts for new things, just like our Singapore in the now and I believe we will experience yet another breakthrough in life. For me it's this Wednesday: Asia Conference 2008.

"Opening my heart once again for a new breakthrough in life."

2008-11-09T02:47:00.004+08:00

Moving On: November First Challange (Last Day of 1 Week of Morning Prayer)

Wow... what a great week! As usual every morning went down to my church which is nearby my workplace to pray every morning, I really really feel that the breakthrough is going to come into my New Life season right now. Last week I talk about relationship is one of the aspect I'm working on in this New Life season and you know what? Just came back from a tea (teh o) chit chat today and one of my friend gone through a similar experience I had in life. After the chit chat, I'm more convinced with my theory, "A relationship must be tested before progressing."

I always believe if a relationship can't get through the test, bless that person (It can be a painful process but it's blibical) and move on! (you have more important things to do) Don't end a relationship with anger (be genorous) but in peace so that you will prosper as your soul prosper.

Now.. how about me? Well.. from the time I decided to move on to my New Life I find that besides Relationship another important thing I'm working on is my Career and some of you know that next week I will be standing in for my executive superior for a week! It will determine whether am I a good assistant to my superior when he is not around and settle things on behalf of him for a week!

It's a good opportunity and you know what? In order for us to grow in whatever area of our life, we need to be tested before we move on to the next level. So friends, let's move on and breakthrough!

2008-11-02T19:56:00.003+08:00

Reunion Of Fellowship? (1 Day Before 1 Week of Morning Prayer)

Tomorrow will be our first day of our one week Morning Prayer yet again! I believe I'm going to end the year well. So recently I have been planning alot for the last two months of this year and one of the thing I'm going to work on is my relationship with people.

I got a few close friends and I'm really thankful for that but I notice something about friendship, crisis will stregthen the friendship or end a friendship. Everything must be tested in order to prove that it is strong and that's why we gotto treasure every precious moment when our close friends are with us because we have gone through so much with our close friends yet we know people will not be able to be there for you all the time.

As close friends we gotto bless them even if we have to go our seperate ways but deep in our hearts we will be praying and blessing that particular close friend. So be sure to be willing to bless that person if it is a time to say farewell and pray that there will be a time of reunion soon.

2008-10-22T20:20:00.002+08:00

Let's Keep It Going

Hi guys, I'm here again to talk again and I can say that right now I'm in the climax of the year or grand finale of the year to put it in another way. Lots of events are coming up, events in the workplace where I have to work OT, events that are spiritual and exciting, events that will determine my productivity, events that will determine my financial status for next year and many many more.

Well got to keep the faith and press on! Got to write it all down and visualize the victorious moments I will be experiencing in the new year eve!

So far I have only taken 1 Annual Leave as I'm too busy with work and other stuffs but I guess this month got to really do some work life balance and therefore I'm planning an event @ Night Safari Halloween! It's gonna be fun! After the fun night I'll be back for a long sleep and do some retreat exercise for myself.

2008-10-15T23:37:00.002+08:00

Expectation Increase

Have been very very busy, physcially and mentally this season. Not going to talk alot today but just want to say:

Expectations from people, colleagues and friends... almost everyone are increasing greatly. I know I got to be stronger than ever before, even for my own expectation, for the Kingdom and for everyone. I want to have the power for it and I'm really looking forward for that kind power at this coming sat, I know it's going to be good and exciting.

"Strength and power from the true love."

2008-10-06T15:03:00.003+08:00

Nov and Dec 2008

You know something? I don't know about you but for me now in my 20s I think time really flies. I remember when I was young I really felt that it takes too long for a year to end. Now? I got to really number my days... and you know lots of important events coming up in the next two months and it will determine my productivity for the year 2008. I really hope I can acheive my goals for 2008 and I will do well in the upcoming important events in the next two months.

It's going to be exciting, yet tiring. :)

2008-10-03T17:38:00.002+08:00

Music and Spirit

I'm getting a little excited recently, going to have a new colleague soon in my dept.

Yesterday I met my guit teacher,

"Invest on the right things!" "Pay the price!" Is really what he will say all the time. At that moment I felt ashamed, don't think I really treasure what he taught me and I kept silent about it, about the similar things I heard from him few years back, the similar way of reasoning and teaching.

Well you must be wondering what am I talking about?

Yesterday a whole group of us went to his session. I felt ashamed after the session but at the same time I was very inspired to fullfill my promise to him and the symbol of the promise lies with my personal guitar exchange with a condition he gave. I'm going to do something about it... I really want to...

2008-09-21T01:24:00.003+08:00

The Great Commandment and My Life Today

I felt that I made a right decision today, I felt so peaceful and happy. Decisions we going to make are always so important in life, epecially in a time of crisis or down moment and bad things do happen when you have the right attitude but we have to press on and continue to do the right thing.

Today I'm so happy that I focus on the right thing although I heard some bad news or negative things about me during these two months. I really do believe it is something that is eternal and that is the

"Great Commandment: Loving God wholeheartedly and loving people fervantly."
The vision of City Harvest Church, the church of the living God.

2008-09-17T13:14:00.002+08:00

Now

The past is trying to gain control of my life through these few incidents but right now to me it is the future that matters. So within these few months gotto put my career first follow by equpping myself and not forgetting about my ministries. So next year hopefully I'll be ready for what I have in mind.

Let us keep in touch with our progress in life :)

2008-09-12T01:26:00.004+08:00

What A Night? (1 Day Before Hokkien Album 1 release)

Always when I thought that I have overcome my past, the past will come back strong and try to shake my faith. Today is such a emotional day to know that one of my best buddy in life, know him for 5 years and now know that our friendship one day might end.

And it is also sad to know that another person actually felt like taking a chopper to my house because of an incident one year ago.

At the moment when I heard it I ask myself, "Am I really beyond hope? Though things are improving in my life now but why people seems to be so judgemental after 1 year have passed?" I think I know the ans of this question but yes... even if the best friend of my life has to go because he has to, I will not ruin his future though I know he is also in a dilema to choose between friendship and purpose. As a true friend... I will support the desire of his heart.

"Emil... you must be strong... the people out there is waiting for you to make a stand."

2008-09-05T23:28:00.003+08:00

Things Expected To Come

Just a recap of what I have said in my previous post, the hokkien album that I have participated will be launching their album release sessions this coming 13/14 September 2008. Do download the poster and check out the timing! Please support this event.

Okay now! Let me start with my next reservice: In Camp Training (ICT2) in 2009 will fall on the month of August! Those who know me haha.. you know I'm going to miss something (not going to tell you what.)

Recently I have been learning alot in my workplace especially now I'm going to stand in for my senior executive supervisor when he is not around and Nov my supervisor will be away for reservice! (My boss did mentioned about promoting me to his direct assistant, thank God!) Is that an opportunity or a chance for disaster? Well... that depends on my attitude which I guess it is somekind of theme for me this year: New Life Season (how you sow a seed?)

Besides working I have some progress in my ministry too but I realize at the same time my playing time has increased (get hooked in Elven Blood a RPG game in Facebook) which I think I should cut down abit. So what about you? Will you join me on this routine check of life?

2008-08-29T06:28:00.003+08:00

Thank You For Your Love Hokkien Album

Finally, after 3 years of preparation... this album is finally launching and just want to let you guys know that I did participate in this album recording project. My previous church will be having 2 Evangelistic meetings in 13/14 September 2008. For more information, please download the poster attached below. Please support this album!

Yea!! It's really a priveledge to participate and serve Him.

2008-08-24T00:42:00.002+08:00

8 Yrs Of Walk With Him: Happiness - Influence

As written in the previous post, soon I'll be in the season of preparing myself for romantic relationship and even my leader is encouraging me to get attached soon (didn't tell him about my plans). God is very intrested in our happiness in life more than anything else but I want to bring this joy to the people around me and I really believe I can do alot more than what I am doing now. I know I have been talking alot about spiritual things recently but bare with me non believers after this entry most probably I will start to talk about other things.

Truly as I look at my spiritual journey, about 8 years of walk with Him I can say that I'm more mature than ever before. Gone through valleys and storms when I thought that I am something and after that I thought that I lost everything but just when I thought that I lost everything, God restored some of the things I used to have bit by bit as my soul prosper, as I begin to put His kingdom first.

Maybe in the past I really have been adopting all the wrong attitudes, in the past I have so much opportunities that people wished that they could have but in the end I chose to throw those opportunities away because I don't think I'm ready. Now though God is restoring things back, just want to say I don't want rush things too quickily and I really hope I will have the right attitudes in everything I do and even in the area of romantic relationship (that's why I wanted to prepare myself first). Well just in case you thought those opportunities I lost were just some romantic relationships, let me tell you no! I'm reallytalking about something more... having opportunities to become an influence to the people BUT before that I really pray that this time as God is restoring what I lost, let me really adopt the right attitude and I know I will do something that will last for eternity! Amen.

2008-08-23T00:38:00.002+08:00

New Direction Of Life

We finished the 2 Weeks of Morning Prayer going to have another one in Nov. It's really great even though there were few days I slept in the sofa so that I can occupy my room for my newphews (but I love to sleep at sofa!). I know He's new anointing is in me especially when I'm living a new life right now.... Talking about this, recently the people around my life and even my leader is talking about getting attached. Received some new materials from my leaders too that really change my mindset about life partner (not forgeting the prophetic birthday gift for dating matches with what God spoken to me for the year 2009).

So now... what's my next step? Well... going to make a step very very soon but I have one more thing to settle and it won't take up much of my time and after that I'm going to start a series of ways preparing myself for it (and then.... after that we'll see how it goes).

Okie... not going to talk much about it but let me just end with a few words:
"Congratulations to my friends that are graudating in SOT this year in 2008!" Ooops it's already my one year annivesary as a SOT graduate and we having a gathering this coming Sunday!

2008-08-20T01:02:00.007+08:00

Malaysian Blood: Bless As You Get Lighter (1 Week Left For 2 Weeks of Morning Prayer)

Previous week was an exciting week! Started our morning prayer last week and started off in our afflicted church: Heart of God in Paya Lebar as I had my off in lieu on the previous Monday and from Tuesday onwards, I need to travel all the way to Jurong West Church before 7am. It can be quite a tiring lifestyle as I need to wake up on all the weekdays of the week at 5am but once I step in I found that the place is really full of His presence and it is addictive haha... I tell you, I don't mind to live a lifestyle of 7-8am morning prayer session everytime before I go to work since my workplace is so near to my Jurong West Church! Everyday I started my day with high morale and I know that I am more productive than ever before.

Last week was really a busy week for me, my 2 good nephews from Malaysia were here again and I brought them to our church and to one of the restaurant in Expo. Really enjoyed the time together with them as I think they really treasure our relationship as relatives. Well time really flies, it was just like yesterday when they were little rascals and by the way I'm just 5 years older than my oldest newphew! Haha so I am a young uncle!

Look at my tagboard haha... Sam is my another good nephew living in Singapore but we all have this same Malaysian blood as we are all from this Malaysia family tree. Nobody will understand how much our elders have gone through but we made it as we put aside the old things for the new things and now we are prospering in life!

Anyway.. from all these things I can relate all these to my life, as I put down my old things, old relationships for the new things and new relationships, life has become much more meaningful and the things of the world like hatred, unforgiveness etc will grow strangely dim and I will be able to bless people abit more generously as days goes by, even towards the people that dun really likes me I felt much more easier to bless and I know I'm getting lighter now. Phew.... peace on my world~

2008-08-17T01:03:00.003+08:00

Shocking Clear Knowledge (1 Week Left For 2 Weeks of Morning Prayer)

Well this is a very very fresh entry I must say and it's one of the most shocking knowledge I had for this year but before I start let me just start off by sharing my new lifestyle that caused me to sleep abit earlier than before on the weekdays.

Wow.. what an exciting week! Started our morning prayer this week and started off in our afflicted church: Heart of God in Paya Lebar as I'm had my off in lieu on the previous Monday and from Tuesday onwards, I need to travel all the way to Jurong West Church before 7am. It can be quite a tiring lifestyle as I need to wake up every on 5am but once I step in I found that the place is really full of His presence and it is addictive haha... I tell you, I don't mind to live a lifestyle of 7-8am morning prayer session everytime before I go to work since my workplace is so near to my Jurong West Church! Everyday I started my day with high morale and I know that I am more productive than ever before.

So what exactly is the knowlede I received?

I had lots and lots and lots of external confirmation about the things that I need to concentrate on next year and there are alot of spiritual teachings I received from my leaders about that particular topic which is a backup confirmation too. You realize I talk alot about my current season here in this blog and it call it the: New Life Series and it consist of:

The mind and attitude when you look at something or new things like:

1. Your career

2. Your gifts and abillities

3. Your dreams and visions

4. Your spiritual life and ministry

5. Family

6. Life partner

At my age what will you normally look at? Some will say at my age you shouldn't look for a life partner and should concentrate on your career or ministry and so on. Of course, sometimes we have some reasons for having a delay to prepare ourselve for it (example

2008-08-10T21:03:00.008+08:00

3rd Birthday Celebration 2008: Eternity (1 Day Before 2 Weeks Of Morning Prayer)

Tomorrow will be our first morning prayer, feeling super excited about it especially when I know God will be doing great things like never before. Firstly, I want to specially thank my cell group for the birthday gift, my mum's $$$ blessing, bro's treat and Wan Rou for the 2 expansive gifts. Not forgetting all the wishes from friends and relatives... big thank you to you guys!!!

Well today I'm going to write about my 3rd Birthday Celebration 2008 and you must be wondering what's so special about this celebration I had today? Infact I can say it is one of the most simple event I have in life but through this event I really felt that happiness is a very simple thing.

Just a simple meal with family and a good elder sister (we treat her as part of our family member), no fancy ideas, not a 21st Birthday Party like event yet it can be an enjoyable moment. You know what? During my 2008 birthday I received blessings and gossip news about my life, you know I didn't hear any gossip about me for a long long time but it came at the wrong time. Today through this example in life just want to say, gossip won't last but a simple love can last for eternity! Look at all these things: Anger, Gossip, Unforgiveness etc... will we be able to find all these things when we return to the Presence of God? No... we won't but a simple love from my Family, Cell group and Friends (don't need to be a complicated one) will follow us all the way to the days of eternity.

"So let us focus on the things of the eternity."

2008-08-09T02:13:00.008+08:00

My 23rd Birthday - SG's Birthday (2 Days Before 2 Weeks of Morning Prayer)

Thanks everyone!!! For the birthday sms, friendster and facebook comments! My handphone was flooded with lots of sms!!!! Was clearing some of my sms for the birthday sms (1st time in my whole life), you might be thinking that this is common to you but to me it is very new.

It's my BEST birthday yet, just now was my 2nd celebration but I still have one more group to go haha... happening ya? Anyway... just want to say really love you guys and really treasure the friendship I have with each and everyone of you. Wanna thank my family and relatives too for all the birthday wishes.

A Dream For Singapore

So now it's already after 12am, it's Singapore's Birthday!!! Personally I am really really proud to be a Singaporean and we always say this line in our pledge (if i am not wrong) "to build a democratic society, based on justice and equality." I really felt that it's so spiritual inline to bring moral values to society and to our fellow Singaporean and the next line says "So as to acheive happiness, prosperity and progress for our nation." how many of you here wants to have a taste of heaven here in Singapore experiencing the joy, prospertity and to see our fellow Singaporean here living in unity to bring our nation forward to a next level? It's so in line with our values as people of God!

Words from my heart: (For those who don't like me please listen to my heartbeat one last time)

Though recently I found out that actually no matter how hard you tried, how much you let go and forgive, there will still be people gossiping about you. Well... gotto get used to it that there will always be people amplifying people's mistake instead of reconciling with each other. But one thing I'm very happy about my cell group and church, we only say good things about people and that's one of the thing we need to do to promote unity. So... friends... what's your view about this?

Maybe in the past I have offended some of you in someway, but let's put it down and focus on other thing will you? Not saying that all of us should recover back the level of friendship we used to have but let's stop destroying, adding salt to people's wound and if you find it hard to bless me, maybe you can bless others rather than saying some negative things about me. Okie... today is my birthday so I'll try to make it short (sorry after all the birthday wishes, I heard a gossip about me spreading to another person today and that incident was an incident that happened one year ago)

I'm really tired of explaning again and again... infact I can admit that I've done wrong and I'm not perfect but ya... I won't be unhappy about it and I'll leave everything to yourself because I have so much more things to focus on but if you are willing I will always be a faithful friend. After all that's my normal characteristic when I cool down.

Okie... so whether you like me or not, I have a word for you: "I treasure you!" - to everyone in my life.

2008-08-05T20:47:00.007+08:00

Romantic Relationship & God (6 Days Before 2 Weeks of Morning Prayer)

8 months have passed since I made a decision in the darkest moment of my life, so now 4 more months left to go before I open myself for something in my life! I must say it has been the most exciting season in my life as I really experience the goodness of God.

Previously our church have this 21 Days of one hour prayer and so many great things have happened and next monday onwards will be 2 Weeks of Prayer every morning at church before we go to work. Seriously speaking I still haven't plan how I'm going to get to my workplace on time but cabbing and leaves should solve everything.

well as I have said my bro have a spiritual (more than frens) female fren and I think my bro is getting more occupied than ever before and I told him that next time he will be even more busy if the relationship progress and I will understand. Well, I think in life we really need to make use of our singleness to get right with God, to serve God before a quarter or half a time will be lost next time for your life partner.

People have been asking me what about me? Haha... because of my brother!! Drag me into this somehow! Well, In Phase 1 I experienced Him so much more than ever before but in Phase 2 (didn't start well after my re service didn't managed to wake up on time and in the end I took a cab that cost me $30+ just to be early!!! But today I reached my workplace on time and I believe as we pray things sooner or later will be okay.) I want to be even more spiritual than Phase 1! More spiritual than ever before and I'm going lift all these things in Phase 2, my dreams and visions to the altar of God.

"Everything will sumbit to You and I don't want it to affect my love for You."

2008-08-03T02:42:00.006+08:00

Phase 1 Of New Life Cleared (Completed 1st Reservice)

I'm back from reservice the day before yesterday and I went back to my current company to work yesterday, still getting used to it because I were inside the camp for a 3 weeks of intensive training and well it's my senior's last half day of work. So I'll be taking over his role, to be honest I'm abit stress :)

So I have cleared the first phase of my new life season! Wow... reservice is really tough but by the grace of God I have gone through the training in one pieace (though I injured my left arm and right now I can't carry things in my workplace). So next year I'll be going for the In Camp Training 2 (ICT2) another 3 weeks of intensive training, by the way once again I want to thank God for my sir as he is someone who knows God and taught the whole team blibical principal while we face some situation in camp.

So to round up everything in Phase 1 of my new life (the Word taught us to count the blessings):

1. I have completed my 1st reservice training.

2. My brother's breakthrough in relationship (Have been encouraging and praying for him)

3. Have some progress in my music project.

4. Promotion in workplace.

5. Passed my Advanced Driving Theory.

6. Dad went to received Christ in altar call

7. Lots of new friendships!

Now here comes Phase 2!! Will be fighting for my final driving test to get my Class 3 and after that I'll probably go for my part time degree at night after work. At that point of time while I'm working and studying, will be making myself ready for a Godly romantic relationship and at the same time probably I'll start to participate abit in missions ministry to gain experience in teaching the word of God and applying what I've learnt in bible school.

So next year I need to clear my 2nd 3 weeks of re-service In Camp Training 2 (ICT2), gotto prepare myself physically and mentally.

"I have dreams from heaven and nothing will stop me from running after them!"

2008-07-26T19:29:00.007+08:00

Talking About My Sibiling (1 week of re-service left)

Hello guys, haha.. I'm back again and just wake up a while and it's already saturday night now. I will be attending tomorrow's service instead as I was sick with lots of bodyaches and blisters but very happy that everything is going to end soon. This week re-service is tough as we did lots of field training.

Today I just want to spend sometime to talk about my sibling and you must be wondering why I use the word "sibling" instead of "brother" because most of the time when I talk about a brother it is always a close friend or brother in christ.

Well.. my brother is one of my role model as a man. His patience, love for the family, brotherhood and towards his life partner everything I think I have much to learn from him.

Well recently my brother get to know quite alot of female friends and 1 spiritual potential life partner and I really thank God she is someone that I really like her to be my sister in law. Things have been moving very smoothly and no matter what they will face I just want to say I am happy for my brother now.

As brothers we always motivate each other, I motivate him to accomplish our dad's dream for us to be a degree holder and his actions and accomplishments taught me about being a good man for my family and my future life partner. Well... as a man... I have lots of dreams but without the character, guess things won't last long.

Just like what Jesus taught, we shouldn't be worst than a pharisee, character is one of the foundation in life and "Right now I'm not there yet but soon brother, I'm going to be there to be a better person as I continue to walk with Him."

2008-07-20T02:39:00.002+08:00

Treasure Your Friends (2 weeks of re-service left)

Ah.. home sweet home... 1stly wanna thank you guys for your smses, I really felt so encouraged when I see your encouragement sms but well.. here are some of my updates:

I injured myself during my training and yes I know I'm careless. Here I am my 1st book out from my first Police trooper training (similar to army) but lots of things I can't reveal to you guys because it is confidential so I'll give it a skip. Well maybe can share more about my re service team, I will be seeing them for the next 10 years and I really enjoy training together with them. Haha.. I think my teamates are my best colleague yet in my whole life (one of my sir is actually my prev squadmate's friend and also my current job colleauge's friend what a small word!) but anyway, I'll be booking in on Sunday.

Yesterday one of my sister came to our home for dinner, what a family dinner we have! Really enjoy ourselves and all of us really treat her as one of us. Well... I guess she will be coming very often but I shall not talk more about it right now, haha.. I'll talk more about her when I have the time.

Through all these things... I really felt alot, felt that it is amazing to have a such a great circle of friendships but more than all these things, even right now as we breathe, what a previledge to live and like what I always said to my close friend, treasure your life, whatever you have in mind please do it and people might want to stop you but let's be strong and fight for it! By the way I notice there are some silent readers in my blog too, you know who you are... wanna thank all of you for being a faithful friend and let's continue to move on and get better in life. See you guys next weekend!

2008-07-12T13:13:00.012+08:00

It's Hard For Ex To Be Fren Again? (1 Day Left Before My Re-Service)

Haha extracted from one of my fren huimin's blog. Well... I guess this is one of the entry I really think it is intresting to read because... I find that through the conversation I learn more about myself and others. So this is the highlight of the day! Cheers! 1 more day to go for my re-service!

I'll be away from home for Police KINS Unit In Camp Training 1 from: 14 July - 1 Aug

Eh before I go, let me just say my stand on the topic of this entry about why can't couples maintain their friendship after they broke off, well seriously I think time can heal your past and I believe in reconciliation BUT after that how close you can be with your ex is really depend on situation. How much each of us can put down the past and trusting each other not having the thought to date again? It's not as simple but lots of things to consider. Okie... enjoy reading this conversation! (btw... pls note I'm not inside the conversation below.)

Why Can't Ex Be Fren Again? (Extracted From Hui Min's Blog)

新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
nah
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
its wierd
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
unless...
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
unless wad?
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
erm it's a kind of bro relation den get into bg relation
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
den realise not that type of love
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
den still can be frens lor
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
y cant couples juz be bacK fren
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
i dun get it lor
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
i think it depends on the situation
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
yup
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
but it is not very nice as when u see him u will feel hurt
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
or being reminded of the past
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
though ppl says what time can heal... ya rite
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
sometime one party may think why last we dun zhen xi each other. den ask for fu he... the other may not think that way... and things may be more complicated
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
so i rather not frens at all, unless is that u really know that person so well, and clear about each other that what your feel for him or vice versa is neutral not love anymore
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
wa
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
huh?
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
speechless
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
but it is interesting that u can still stay fren with ex...
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
means that wither u can not over about it or sth ba
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
cos its very hard to find zhi ji
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
means that wither u can not over about it or sth ba.. wad u mean?
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
i mean that either you cant over that relationship - meaning u still have that feel, or not will be the other case mention jus now
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
this kind of thing should be qte obvious - u know it yourselves...
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
haha, mine is e other one, where we both cld put down wad's tat over btw us. so yea. nth much
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
mean... i believe so... but that is what u think on the surface.
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
deep in ur heart - i think u still a little like him
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
or another way to say is that guy may be one u feel really comfortable with - the one u love most / perfer most compared to the other
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
that y u wanna stay in contact with him
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
and oso both parties muz be agreeable to it
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
ur char i feel lah.. can be very sui pian in certain things, but for love u are trying to be show ur brave side, inside you heart is very small
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
unlike those who really look with their weak heart - like abit feel hurt
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
but when come to love they may handle it better than the brave side one
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
is always that way... yue qiang jiang de ren qi shi xin le shi zui cui rou de
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
i always wonder y u put ... i guess you are not over with a guy u like - but i dunno who
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
so when u see him u start emo the rest of the day
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
proj workload add on to this factor
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
LOL
。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
or wadeva u describe urself
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
or maybe diff ppl have diff ways of handling
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
it s hard u know
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
to treat nth happen b4
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
u best remedy is to be fren with ur ex
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
but to them is to look fwd and continue with life
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
i guess u 2 tog b4 somewhat should know what he is thinking
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
or another to say - both of you dunno each in depth
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
so he cant cross himself to be frens again
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
if let say he ignore it show that he really give out on a most basic relation - frenship
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
den why bother-- and make yourself bad, sad, emo

2008-07-11T23:17:00.005+08:00

Lone Support Season? (2 Days Left Before My Re-Service)

Recently lots of my closer colleague decided to tender and that was quite a surprise. So at the moment I will be the only one supporting my boss until a new person come in. Not to forget I still have Re-Service to clear.

Well... I guess this is life, we gotto get used to people coming in and out of our life and always be prepared to meet new people.

Hopefully... my new clicks will come soon. Re-Service is just around the corner.

2008-07-08T00:11:00.002+08:00

The Introduction To A Future Season (1 Wk Before My Re-Service)

What a tremendous presence of God even when I talk right now, I just sense that I will see a breakthrough very soon in my current season today as I spend sometime with Him. What a God moment, what a priviledge to serve Him at a time like this. I know that after my New Life Season, the Mission Season will be very very soon to come.

I am called since I was young and I know that day by day my time is approaching, as I begin to sow, I will begin to reap and I will be equipped to do great things for Him.

What a night I have today, so hard to describe but yet so clear in my mind.

2008-07-07T01:05:00.002+08:00

Light And Darkness (1 Week Before Re-Service)

I guess every single one of us somehow or rather will feel that we are living in a very self centered and icy world at times, where everyone (including myself) is so busy with their own things. Is there really true love among us? Is there hope when the world seems so dark? Some of the questions most of us will ask. Well... let's become the salt and light of the world, that's what we are here for! Maybe we should really start the ball rolling and the ball from heaven will move in our lives like never before.

Well last week before I stay out of the world for 3 weeks (Re-Service Residential Training), I hope I can do something meaningful in the lives of the people. Well that's all for last week, time to prepare for Monday Working Day!

2008-07-04T00:00:00.002+08:00

Enjoyable Chit Chat

Just finished a chat with a china friend, really enjoy the conversation. I always love China and the chinese national and she's really a fun person to chat with. But haha.. time to get back to my own life, gotto do some preparation for the in camp trainning and the things that is lining up these two weeks before I get in.

Time to also prepare work for tomorrow! Last day for this week! Yea...

2008-06-30T02:21:00.003+08:00

I'm Cute??!! (Last Two Weeks Before Re Service...)

Two weeks before my new unit in camp trainning, I'll be away from home from 14 July - 1 August. Hmm... it's going to be exciting to be more like an army personnel.

Well this is the final thing I need to face before going for further studies, hmm... finally I'm going for the last phase of my education and I believe I'm getting my driving lisence soon in a few months time.

Well... haha... many will ask how about my love life? Hmm... like I always say, let my career come first and try not to be cute when girls around! LOL... recently lots of gals told me that I'm super cute.

Anyway... thanks for the motivation for me to become smaller in size, now I don't take dinner anymore cos after work I can only reach home at 8+ pm which I think it's too late for dinner. Well gonna watch my diet as I'm getting older, haha... or it will affect my cuteness... oh no... can you you gals call me shuai or ying jun instead? Anyway... skipping dinner is super effective!

That's all for last week... gotto sleep before I go to work later. Goodnight :)

2008-06-26T01:52:00.002+08:00

The Dead End

Let me release to you another good news in my life, I got promoted to a confirmed staff! So I'll get more monthly $$$ and benefits in the company woohoo! God is good! more good news will come!

Well just finish a phone conversation with my gan brother and haha... I felt alot through this conversation. We were talking about the posibilities we might get to see if we can turn back time, well I think... things will be very smooth and we'll progress much faster. We will not repeat our past mistakes but it is impossible!

Ever have the feeling that we are reaching a dead end? I did... but it's amazing when you get to breakthrough the walls miraculously and I know in life in our dreams and visions we will face dead ends but it is ok... let's not give up... let's press in... and breakthrough!

2008-06-20T17:44:00.003+08:00

1st Contact (Passing FTT)

Told some of my old friends it will take a while for us to meet again. As we proceed with our busy adult life we know that sometimes in life we do have to focus on some things and yet we know that through all these acheivements are nothing more than just to bless somebody. All of us have a job to develop our natural abilities.

So after a great meal with my old friends last Mon, all of us know that we have a thing or more to settle and we have to face our current season. So here am I first contact on my world to progress and I started off strong! I passed my Final Theory Test and now left the last to clear, my Driving Practical Test before I go for my degree.

"It's by the grace of God, everything we acheive."

2008-06-14T23:25:00.003+08:00

Dad, I'm Home

"Dad, indeed I'm back home, not physically here staying with you but I hope our hearts will be united as one family worshipping the Lord and loving one another as a family."

Currently we are in a 21 Days of 1 Hour per day prayer season and I have testimonies to say for my career promotion and family salvation but half an hour more is Father's Day and I guess today it is my happiest Father's Day in life. So let me share about my family salvation first.

My dad the only unbeliever in my direct family went down to the altar call with me today. He was smiling and was open in the service. I want to thank my heavenly Father for this as He is the one that makes all these things possible! Thank you Andy for encouraging me to invite my dad down to the altar call because I always lack of the courage to invite him down and was feeling abit afraid at that moment.

I always respected my dad alot, I love my dad but he used to be very strict with me when I was young and that was when I started to be abit fearful when I communicate with him. Overall I think it is a breakthrough because I actually get to express more of my love for him today.

"Dad, indeed I'm back home, not physically here staying with you but I hope our hearts will be united as one family worshipping the Lord and loving one another as a family."

2008-06-12T22:29:00.004+08:00

I said give me three years...

and now it is left with another 2 and a half year for me to fufill it. I don't want to show off anything but I just want to be who I am in another realm, wait for me... I'll come to you in due season, I'll be the best of you.

Right now... I dun mind to know you more.

2008-06-08T04:08:00.002+08:00

Real Brotherhood Three

Well, there are three people that are important in my life. They are the one that stood by me in my darkest time and I guess it's time to write about them to let them know how I cherish the brotherhood relationship I have with them.

So here comes the first one: Yong Chuan (My mentor in everything)
Why I said everything? He is the first one who taught me about serving in the kingdom of God and also an advisor for my studies and career for quite a while. I end up doing the same thing as him, a singer and someone who knows abit of guitar. What else? He is also working in the field of IT. Wow... amazing right? Also... he taught me about being humble which I think that's something that is very important in life. (I used to be very proud)

second one: Annoymous (Buddy of everything)
Well imagine someone having exactly the same interest in almost everything! Music, Our own unknown langauge and thinking, Playing Games (Hey I don't play games nowadays, because I got more imp things to do.), Jokes, Theology and food! But the most important thing I should say is how he really spend time to listen when I'm in my darkest moment and encouraged me.

third and the most imp one: Shixiong (Thank you for everything)
I want to thank him, because he is the one who brought me the words from heaven and without all those words, I'll still live in my old ways and thinking. My current life is so good now, thanks to his leadership! He's really a man of prayer, a man that closely follow the ways of God. Through him I got to know God more and I really want to thank him for this friendship, for really being a friend and a good listener. Also want to thank him for all the laughter, hahaha... the jokes! He is not just a leader, but a friend in my life.

2008-06-03T16:44:00.001+08:00

Investments For Life

The most important thing when comes to investment is time and patient and I guess you don't just apply it for money but for life.

As I'm in a season of sowing seeds I guess there is no rush for results but so far things are still smooth. Risk? We are born to take it.

Now is the crucial moment as I am approaching to warzone. Things will be well, will be well..

2008-05-22T22:51:00.004+08:00

Spirit Fall

3 New songs from CHC available for you to purchase for digital download: http://store.attributes.com.sg/product_info.php?products_id=10864

Well, just bought the 3 songs combo and I think it's very nice! Yes, indeed when we seek His kingdom, when we experience a touch from the Spirit our life will change! Wow.. from last year till now, what a miracle I experience in my life! Even today... just received some ministry progress and I know it is not me but it is His Spirit inside of me working and making a difference in my life. Just want to give Him all the glory and all the praise for everything He has done in my life! Amen. Goodnight!

2008-05-18T00:07:00.001+08:00

Enjoying Your Work?

When you are doing something you like, you won't mind to work OT and guess what? Yesterday I worked till 2.50am.

Wow.. I'm so thankful this week that I really get to see the good sides of all my colleagues. One of my female colleague is a very generous person, insisted to treat us expansive things and for my department colleagues, I find that I have a good boss and buddy too. Think my boss and buddy really gave me the training and patience that most people will feel reluctant to give.

I will try my best, I will never let them down and I really need the strength from Him.
Thank You for everything. Well I have work later and at midnight will be out to Mustafa for night shopping with my cell group.

Now it's already Sunday morning, so tomorrow will be a public holiday, so I just want to take this opportunity to wish you guys a HAPPY HOLIDAY! Have a nice break day! WOHOO!

2008-05-14T18:26:00.000+08:00

Re Service: The Coming ICT (In Camp Training)

I'm in KINS Unit, went to breifing today and notice that this Unit Training Programme is really like Army. Basically we are like SWAT doing building warfare, therefore I think that's the reason why we start to learn all the things we heard from Army.

Well... the training looks more challenging than my NS training and this residential/stay in training will take about 3 weeks and thats long! We are the only Re Service unit that requires residential training and heard from our sir that we must be mentally prepared for no bookout in the weekends.

Was reminded about the time when I was still a trainee in the camp today and different supports from friends I have at the time. I guess that's life, we gotto accept it and move on! Thanks for all the support I have this time round from new friends and really thank you for being a faithful friend to me, I'll do my very best in my first In Camp Training in July. Jia you (keep it up) Emil!

2008-05-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

Taking Off From A Plane

Byebye sweet homeland
like the time I went NS
Here I am in real tension
like the time I stay in camp
But one thing I know for sure
I will be safe for this time.

I am with Him and guess what?

Things have been tiggered off and it is getting exciting: Country (Re-Service: New Assault Type Unit) Family (Real peace like never before), Career (IT Job Challenge, Music Productions), Ministry (New Path), Friendship (So many new friends!), Romanticly (My church friends matchmaking me with someone else, is a joke I think? Dunno...but the time is quite prophetic to my new life season. Put it last because well I can look around right now but I think in this area I will be super caution and slow this year.)

So ya... let's see how it goes? Goodnight, gotto work tmr.

2008-05-03T02:18:00.000+08:00

Stronger Than Ever Before

Well I thought of concluding the New Life Aim and move on to the normal posting, but the New Life Aim is going to cost abit of my time and I'm quite busy nowadays with my work and ministries, therefore I'll continue with my normal posting and I'll post a final conclusion of my new life aim when I got more time. Well, good to be back to talk again (lor soh).

Shortly after I started a new life and overcome my trails and tribulations, one thing I benefit from the incident is I am stronger than ever and even stronger than the times before my trials and tribulation.

I have a secret behind this and I guess I dun need to say much about it but the main thing I want to say is, it is not just your secret. So what if you have the best secret weapon and in the end you step on a trap or you got backstab by someone somehow?

One thing I learn in life, it's not how you start off the race but how you end it. Don't get proud, don't be over confident, don't trust your flesh too much, becareful, flee from evil and I believe I can even grow more. Really amazing in times like this I can suddenly go up to this place that all my life I didn't taste of it before.

2008-04-27T02:11:00.000+08:00

Last New Life Series: Letting Go And Moving On (This entry is for those who were once my super close buddy)

Well this is the last thing I'm going to talk about regarding my life and I'm going to conclude my New Life Aim in the next entry and I will try my best to live a new life 24/7.

This is the saddest thing I wanted to talk about, there will always be people who choose not to let go or forgive and in life if there is no trust, relationships will stop growing. No right or wrong, we don't trust everyone but we must forgive everyone.

I think in my life lots of friends left me because of conflicts, change of character, my wrong doings but in life it's really not good for me to put responsibilities in others. I guess, I have a part to play, to let go and to be stronger.

Forgiving myself and to move on with life is not easy, really need to let go alot and discipline to stop myself for critisizing others who left my life. Through all these maybe most of you will think that I won't benefit anything from it but I just want to say... problems make us stronger.

Through all these I found a new life, new relationships, new ministry, new career, new dreams and visions! So what if I lost them? My guitar teacher always told me this, "don't get bitter, get better!" and it's really good that I'm learning not to blame others but to take responsibility on my part and not others, that's the character of a real man and dosen't matter if I lost something, whatever I lost I'm going to get it back with all the lessons I have learn in the past. So what if my spiritual life got affected so much from my wrong doing in the past? I'll pick it up once again... I'll pray more... I'll serve more, I'll love more and many more.

So lastly I just want to say, maybe some of you here are so called my friends but you don't really consider me as a friend in your heart and I'm going to say to everyone that I'm sorry but if you guys think that I can't be trusted, I will not blame you but I will move on in life. Whatever unhappiness, let's throw it away (Letting Go) and move on in life.

Let's get better, maybe we can't be good friends anymore but at least we were once good friends and we fought a good fight with a good memory. Cheers :)!

From the bottom of my life.
From Emil, Always your friend.

2008-04-26T00:19:00.001+08:00

2nd Last New Life Series: The Fight OF Life (Further Studies, Financial Planning, Romance etc)

Well... the topic of my new life is coming to an end soon in my blog and yes "The New Life Series" will be myself living it out 24/7. So my blog entries will be back to normal, hopefully not too personal but intresting.

In adulthood, all of us have been trying very hard. Really very hard, be it in relationship, studies, career, ministry and all kinds of things.

Responsibilities and the demand of productivity in your daily life is growing heavier and heavier but we have only one solution for this tiring adulthood stage, "The Supernatural Prayer". I've been planning alot recently for my further studies and also did lots of financial planning for myself.

Well for my romantic life, not going to concentrate on it this year and but for next year? Maybe or maybe not but I know that this year is the foundation of my adulthood life and I really got to spend more time on it.

Gotto have the Right Flow Of Life from the top/our Father in whatever we do and things will be smooth. May I be strong in the midst of the tension of life.

2008-04-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

New Life Series Part 9: Adulthood Process In Singapore

Well... my Malaysian cousin is here tonight, got to shift to my bro's place to sleep. Spend about an hour to really tidy up my room and I guess my room is super neat now.

Okie let's go the main thing for today, I received a letter today and I saw this police logo and the word "ON GOVERNMENT SERVICE". Oh... re service is finally here and guess what? I'm in the KINS Unit, one of the unit from SOC. So this STAR Team or people know them as "SWAT Team or fei hu dui" is also under SOC.

So somehow I am related to this formidable team in Singapore and of course the training will be tiring but I guess work and re service is part of the life for guys in Singapore. So 1985 buddies, let's keep it up k? 123 Yes!

2008-04-18T13:46:00.000+08:00

The New Life Series Part 8: I'm a 3C (Potential husband)

Hahaha... I know it's lame but it's good to be lame once in a while. I just obtained my first credit card yesterday! It's just like yesterday when I were still a child when I watched those hero main character guy with a credit card. It looks good!

Well, in Singapore people like to talk about 5C husbands. Having a Career, some spare Cash, Credit Card for convenient payment and well for the next two still need to take sometime for me to get them!

A Car and a Condo! So for now, let me just aim for a Car. Lastly, I'm not a husband yet and so I'm a potential one.

So with all the explanation above, that concludes my title for this post. It is good to prosper but let's not let all these be our reason for living.

2008-04-17T13:41:00.001+08:00

The New Life Series Part 7: The Right Flow Of Life (Priorities In Relationship)

Well recently I felt that my relationship in ministry and my daily social life are growing and from there, there is a lesson to learn, allow me to speak the spiritual aspect of my life again because I felt that this will be one of the key for this new life. Felt that In life we always need to take note of certain patterns or principals, we need to set priorities in whatever things we do and this pincipal can be applied in your workplace, relationships, ministries and many more.

Well, today specificly I need to remind myself to do this in relationship. What I mean is really invest in the most important place and then let it flow down. Our God is good and that's why we need to give Him all the priorities in terms of relationship so that the more we build our relationship the more He will teach us to love our family and friends. If you can't give more of your time to your cell group, then don't think of meeting a need and healing a hurt in the lost world.

Well, if the relationship between you and your family is in a mess, better settle it first before you proceed further to the lost world. You need a place to rest and ultimately before you rest physically, you need to rest spiritually in the secret place.

I really believe as I set priorities in the right thing, I'll begin to see a right flow in my life and everything will seem to be so right because there is a flow from the top and whatever we do we will not be powerless.

2008-04-10T00:58:00.000+08:00

The New Life Series Part 6: Music Career Breakthrough

I'm really so excited for the album which I have participated is about to release soon! Yes soon! So happy that I have made some progress in my song writting career too! Well, really want to thank the team for working so hard and it's really the unity that brought us to this level.

Well personally, I really want to say that this is the evidence of what I felt earlier on in the beginning of the year that indeed this is the year of promotion. Even in my church ministry as I'm walking towards the path of a singer and guess what?! An opportunity is right infront of me and I really want to believe that indeed that all these things will progress so that I can serve Him even more and glorify our Father in heaven. All the glory to our God!

Gotto work tomorrow so goodnight friends!

2008-04-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

The New Life Series Part 5: The Gathering For A Purpose

Well, it has been a while since I stuck myself on this topic of new life and I really do believe that spiritual thing can be preached by your actions, the way you handle a seed of new life.

Today I'm going to talk about my life again and this is a topic that I usually dun talk that much in my blog but today I just want to appreciate this group of people in my life. Before I start I just want to say the reason that I dun usually talk about this topic is because it is quite a sensitive topic to talk about and maybe some of you might misunderstood my meaning? I dunno... but trust me, everything I said today is a fresh expression of my very true heart.

Ok now let me begin, friends... I believe different people are called to be together for a greater purpose and I believe the group of people is my cell group member! (Surprised E254! If you guys are reading... haha..) Well it dosen't mean that my other friends are not as important! No! But I believe my cell group is somehow a cell group that I've always wanted to be with, not because they are better than others but we have the same values and I believe this is no coincidence, we have something to accomplish together and that's the reason God put us together.

Well everybody will have their own group of people to work with for a higher purpose in life, you have your own group to look for (if you haven't found one) or you have your own group to work with (to improve in the ability to work better as a group)...

and I know my group... I really do... we are together not because of us... but for higher calling and I just found out this recently... I didn't really water the seed... but now I see the potential of this group... that indeed if I work on it I will see a forest from this group. The path of new life is ahead of me, don't look back and now as I'm walking I have already tasted some of the good fruits from the trees and I believe more fruits will bare... I believe...

Different Values, Different Groups but many groups are called.